My Dads 2nd anniversary of his passing is later this month, and my dear friend Karen's 1st year anniversary is the month after. There are times that I want to be angry at the both of them for not being here and not being able to see or talk to them. It's also seeing them both go from strength to weakness and trying to keep your own strength and not show your own weakness to them! The want and the desire just to have a moment with them, can be frustrating!
I can hear my dad saying "don't worry about me. Worry about your girls"! Even in my dads last hours of his life I'm sure he tried to shoo me home, but unfortunately for him I got to choose this time to spend his last night with him. And Karen, I can always hear you, when I'm in trouble you would of said "Claire Louise" and not in trouble it's "baby girl". I know your both in my heart and are looking out for me...I do just sometimes wish you were here! Xx
Thursday, 12 December 2013
Tuesday, 3 December 2013
Saturday, 30 November 2013
Nana Nap
Hi, sorry it's been a while.
Had a crazy busy weekend/Friday with Mums Diary. Friday I was up at 3.30am to be on a plane at 5.50am to Rockhampton. I went to Rockhampton in honour of my dad to officially launch mums diary. Back on the plane at 2.30pm, to be home to take my girls to their school Christmas party at 6pm and have a mums diary table at the school too. Saturday morning I got to sleep in and stay in my pj's till midday, then go and set up for my next market by 4pm and stay till 8pm. Up Sunday morning at 3.15am to be at a market by 3.30am. Finally home to have lunch with my family.
A random act of kindness happened to us over the weekend!! My front gate was ajar and hard to open and hard to close. Well...I went out for an hour yesterday and got home to find that someone had fixed it. Whom ever you are thank you, thank you. Such a lovely thing to do and no more struggling with the gate.
Now...time for my Nana nap x
Had a crazy busy weekend/Friday with Mums Diary. Friday I was up at 3.30am to be on a plane at 5.50am to Rockhampton. I went to Rockhampton in honour of my dad to officially launch mums diary. Back on the plane at 2.30pm, to be home to take my girls to their school Christmas party at 6pm and have a mums diary table at the school too. Saturday morning I got to sleep in and stay in my pj's till midday, then go and set up for my next market by 4pm and stay till 8pm. Up Sunday morning at 3.15am to be at a market by 3.30am. Finally home to have lunch with my family.
A random act of kindness happened to us over the weekend!! My front gate was ajar and hard to open and hard to close. Well...I went out for an hour yesterday and got home to find that someone had fixed it. Whom ever you are thank you, thank you. Such a lovely thing to do and no more struggling with the gate.
Now...time for my Nana nap x
Sunday, 8 September 2013
Magic
My Dad was a magician for over 60 years, and was an order of Merlin! Marco the magician and Patches the clown were his two act names.
My dads passion for magic, and belief in not sharing the secret was something I admired. I can still hear him say " A true magician never reveals his secrets". As kids growing up going to functions and events with dad, we did not always appreciate the magic journey. Even when my dad just popped to the shops, he always had a magic trick in his pocket or his wallet ready to go! Dad just loved magic, seeing people's reaction and surprise.
My brothers and I inherited 60years of magic tricks, books and so much more. It has been boxed in my home for not quite two years and its time for the magician society to collect and hopefully it will go to other magicians that will have the same passion for magic that my dad did! I can't begin to explain the amount of boxes I have full of magic tricks, each magic trick is individually packed with the instructions. My dad was never tech savvy, so all the magic ticks instructions were typed on a type writer! My dad new what every magic trick did and where is was in his cupboards (that we were not supposed to be in).
The magician society will collect dads magic this week to sort through and sell. I can only wish that someone enjoys the magic and shares in his passion! X
My dads passion for magic, and belief in not sharing the secret was something I admired. I can still hear him say " A true magician never reveals his secrets". As kids growing up going to functions and events with dad, we did not always appreciate the magic journey. Even when my dad just popped to the shops, he always had a magic trick in his pocket or his wallet ready to go! Dad just loved magic, seeing people's reaction and surprise.
My brothers and I inherited 60years of magic tricks, books and so much more. It has been boxed in my home for not quite two years and its time for the magician society to collect and hopefully it will go to other magicians that will have the same passion for magic that my dad did! I can't begin to explain the amount of boxes I have full of magic tricks, each magic trick is individually packed with the instructions. My dad was never tech savvy, so all the magic ticks instructions were typed on a type writer! My dad new what every magic trick did and where is was in his cupboards (that we were not supposed to be in).
The magician society will collect dads magic this week to sort through and sell. I can only wish that someone enjoys the magic and shares in his passion! X
Tuesday, 20 August 2013
See/Seeing!
See...determine with certainty, learn, find out, decide, deem to be, make sense of, become aware of, get to know, perceive mentally and observe as if with an open eye.
Seeing...perception by means of the eyes.
Perception...be coming aware via senses, representation, knowledge gained and representation.
To see is the first step to seeing, to gain the knowledge of perception. x
Seeing...perception by means of the eyes.
Perception...be coming aware via senses, representation, knowledge gained and representation.
To see is the first step to seeing, to gain the knowledge of perception. x
Tuesday, 30 July 2013
Trust/Believe
Trust
Noun- Firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something.
Verb- Believe in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of.
Believe
Verb- Accept as true.
To have confidence in a person or something without fear (trust)! Noun is people, place or thing! Verbs are doing words! (simplistic version)
When you trust and believe in someone or something, and when that trust and belief is jeopardised fear takes over. Anxiousness, an inability to be able to believe the truth is such an empty feeling! Sound familiar? I walked an angry path at one stage, until a friend told me this "you trust people until they give you reason not to"! This advise came from a 23 year old that just lent money to a friend after only knowing them for two weeks!
After thinking about what the 23 year old had said, it changed my path and gave me reason to Trust and Believe. X
Noun- Firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something.
Verb- Believe in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of.
Believe
Verb- Accept as true.
To have confidence in a person or something without fear (trust)! Noun is people, place or thing! Verbs are doing words! (simplistic version)
When you trust and believe in someone or something, and when that trust and belief is jeopardised fear takes over. Anxiousness, an inability to be able to believe the truth is such an empty feeling! Sound familiar? I walked an angry path at one stage, until a friend told me this "you trust people until they give you reason not to"! This advise came from a 23 year old that just lent money to a friend after only knowing them for two weeks!
After thinking about what the 23 year old had said, it changed my path and gave me reason to Trust and Believe. X
Saturday, 20 July 2013
Wish you were here
Every time I here Delta Goodrem sing "Wish you were here" it reminds me of my dear friend Karen. I had the pleasure of spending time with friends last night in honour of Karen's tradition. She would go to our friends hair salon (also named Karen) when she needed a colour, she called it her "pack and send" as she washed the colour out at home! Being the last client of the day she would take a bottle of champagne, Karen called it "poo" and they enjoy a drink together! Hairdresser Karen's salon for me is like a big hug of familiarity after recently moving from one side of the city to another.
After Karen's last client last night we raised our glasses (of poo) in her honour.
I do wish you were here, but you are in so many ways! X
After Karen's last client last night we raised our glasses (of poo) in her honour.
I do wish you were here, but you are in so many ways! X
Tuesday, 16 July 2013
Doors
Wow...I have been off line since May, I'm back!
I'm sure we have all heard the saying "when one door closes, another door opens". For my close friends that know me, I have done this over the last 2 years or so! And it is still happening to me now. Past has taught me to be stronger and know and learn the valuable lesson each situation throws my way. Sometimes I struggled to close the door, but I now know what lies within the open door. Fear holds us back, but freedom holds the key! x
I'm sure we have all heard the saying "when one door closes, another door opens". For my close friends that know me, I have done this over the last 2 years or so! And it is still happening to me now. Past has taught me to be stronger and know and learn the valuable lesson each situation throws my way. Sometimes I struggled to close the door, but I now know what lies within the open door. Fear holds us back, but freedom holds the key! x
Tuesday, 14 May 2013
Never Judge A Book By its Cover!
At work this week, I had the pleasure of meeting an amazing lady, that has made a lasting impression on me!
I'm guilty of making a judgement of her when she first walked in, as she was wearing fluro work cloths and just finished work! We very easily struck up a conversation about her granddaughter and she was telling me how at4 old she hated her curly hair and wanted it to be straight. I could relate to that as my Miss 12 hates her curly hair and too wants straight hair.
Some how we got on to the topic of her ex husband and how she found out he was cheating after 25 years of marriage. I don't want to get into the politics of the dynamics of a relationship/marriage, because each situation has its own set of circumstances.
She then proceeded to tell me she packed her house up in 3 hours, took most items, assets, kids and left and has never seen him again 2 yeas later. She said the first 12 months were hard, now she has a great job, new car, new life, loves her kids and being a grandma. I could not get over this woman's strength and a sense of freedom and acceptance of her situation after 25 years of marriage (your only getting bits of our conversation).
The last thing she said to me was "now it time for me to find a new man", we both had a giggle like two school girls! I still think about that day she popped into the store and it makes me smile, "I told her to write a book", she is thinking about it.
I don't condone marriage breakups, I've been down that road myself it's tough. But in the midst of her turmoil she got to the other side and found happiness. I Will never forget her or judge a book by its cover! x
I'm guilty of making a judgement of her when she first walked in, as she was wearing fluro work cloths and just finished work! We very easily struck up a conversation about her granddaughter and she was telling me how at
Some how we got on to the topic of her ex husband and how she found out he was cheating after 25 years of marriage. I don't want to get into the politics of the dynamics of a relationship/marriage, because each situation has its own set of circumstances.
She then proceeded to tell me she packed her house up in 3 hours, took most items, assets, kids and left and has never seen him again 2 yeas later. She said the first 12 months were hard, now she has a great job, new car, new life, loves her kids and being a grandma. I could not get over this woman's strength and a sense of freedom and acceptance of her situation after 25 years of marriage (your only getting bits of our conversation).
The last thing she said to me was "now it time for me to find a new man", we both had a giggle like two school girls! I still think about that day she popped into the store and it makes me smile, "I told her to write a book", she is thinking about it.
I don't condone marriage breakups, I've been down that road myself it's tough. But in the midst of her turmoil she got to the other side and found happiness. I Will never forget her or judge a book by its cover! x
Monday, 22 April 2013
Kids & Chores
As parents we all have our own style/opinion on how we patent our children. I would like to talk about kids & chores.
A family member (no name) comes to stay on the school holidays, to help with the girls while I work, and I'm very grateful to have the help. But I do contest to being told about what my kids should be doing around my house at there age, 9 and 12!
My children are not silly by any means, when my dad was sick in hospital 2 years ago my Miss 12 at that time was Miss 10, made all the lunches for school, as I left for the hospital before they were even awake (don't worry they were supervised). They make toast, sandwiches, clean, vacuum and more.
I believe the kids should be kids and play and use their imagination for as long as they can, before they enter this big wide would of being a responsible adult. I bet as an adult if you could be a kid for just one day again, you would go to that happy childhood place again and feel free from everyday pressure of adulthood.
I don't walk around with blinkers on, but my girls need to be kids and at the end of the day they see what I do and when the time is right I know they will be OK!
My saying to my girls is "be a kid, your a long time an adult".
A family member (no name) comes to stay on the school holidays, to help with the girls while I work, and I'm very grateful to have the help. But I do contest to being told about what my kids should be doing around my house at there age, 9 and 12!
My children are not silly by any means, when my dad was sick in hospital 2 years ago my Miss 12 at that time was Miss 10, made all the lunches for school, as I left for the hospital before they were even awake (don't worry they were supervised). They make toast, sandwiches, clean, vacuum and more.
I believe the kids should be kids and play and use their imagination for as long as they can, before they enter this big wide would of being a responsible adult. I bet as an adult if you could be a kid for just one day again, you would go to that happy childhood place again and feel free from everyday pressure of adulthood.
I don't walk around with blinkers on, but my girls need to be kids and at the end of the day they see what I do and when the time is right I know they will be OK!
My saying to my girls is "be a kid, your a long time an adult".
Sunday, 10 March 2013
Max
Well... Our little boy Max (dog) got de-sexed on Friday! Plus he also had two baby teeth and a hernia removed. And the tattoo in his ear, let's just say his ear looks a slight shade of grey!
I must say, he has done extremely well with a cone around his head for the last two days. It's so cute when he walks with this oversize cone, it goes side to side with each step he takes. Looking forward to getting him back to normal, only seven days to go till he can have a bath, and he needs it! X
I must say, he has done extremely well with a cone around his head for the last two days. It's so cute when he walks with this oversize cone, it goes side to side with each step he takes. Looking forward to getting him back to normal, only seven days to go till he can have a bath, and he needs it! X
Thursday, 7 March 2013
I'm back!
Hi All,
Well...school is back and it's almost school holidays, where does the time go!
I was dropping my girls to school this morning (at the drop of zone), to only think back that 12 months ago I used to walk them into school/class and wait till the bell went. Now it's a kiss on the cheek get out their are cars behind me, I love you, see you this afternoon and bye! I remember when my youngest was a permanent attachment to my leg and I could not leave without the teacher prying her off my leg. Then walking away feeling sad and wanting to cry!!
Sad as it is, they are growing so fast!!!
Well...school is back and it's almost school holidays, where does the time go!
I was dropping my girls to school this morning (at the drop of zone), to only think back that 12 months ago I used to walk them into school/class and wait till the bell went. Now it's a kiss on the cheek get out their are cars behind me, I love you, see you this afternoon and bye! I remember when my youngest was a permanent attachment to my leg and I could not leave without the teacher prying her off my leg. Then walking away feeling sad and wanting to cry!!
Now the independence has kicked in may be for all of us! I don't have to worry about trying to pry my youngest off my leg and now we have gone to another milestone to dropping off at the drop off zone.
Sad as it is, they are growing so fast!!!
Friday, 1 February 2013
Karen..
I lost my dear friend to cancer mid January, her name is Karen and she was only 48.
Karen was one of the most amazing people I know. Fun, cheeky, crazy, loving, generous, glamorous, happy, giving and a great friend to many.
She showed me strenght, to fight and to believe. I will take that with me through my life.
Peace be with you Miss Karen, Love you x
Karen was one of the most amazing people I know. Fun, cheeky, crazy, loving, generous, glamorous, happy, giving and a great friend to many.
She showed me strenght, to fight and to believe. I will take that with me through my life.
Peace be with you Miss Karen, Love you x
Sunday, 6 January 2013
Happy Belated New Year
Hi There,
I trust you all had a wonderful Christmas and Happy New Year!
My family and I have had a wonderful time. Back into it today!
Have a great 2013 everyone! X
I trust you all had a wonderful Christmas and Happy New Year!
My family and I have had a wonderful time. Back into it today!
Have a great 2013 everyone! X
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